I was looking back on my life recently in awe. How in the world did I get here?
If you would have told me 20 years ago I would be where I am today, I would never have believed you. There was no way. I was so careful. I prayed, fasted, sought counsel, and even cut ties with relationships I thought would end in disaster. Then I found myself in a relationship that ended in disaster. How could this happen? How did I get here? What did I do wrong?
How about you? Have you ever asked yourself those questions?
At first, it may be unpleasant to think about. How did this happen to me? How did I get here? What did I do to deserve this? But, what if you flip it around to make it more positive?
How am I still here? How did I make it through all that I went through and I am still alive?
For so many years I looked at my past with sadness. That’s o.k. for a minute, but we can’t let ourselves stay there. We can mourn what we lost. We need to in order to heal, but we also need to realize life must go on.
Recently, I found myself making this mental shift. I looked back at all I have endured and I was kinda proud. I made it through a lot of stuff. I made some really hard and terrifying decisions. It’s nothing I ever thought I would have had to walk through, but I made it. I feel stronger, wiser, and confident that God really is with me. He didn’t leave me. We made it through together and He is with you too.
It will be really hard sometimes, but you have to remind yourself in moments of stretching that you are being strengthened. I look back proud because that little girl I once was never would have thought she would have been able to make it through. But she did it. I did it and you can too.
How did I get here? Because…
“I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.” Philippians 4:13
